I’m sitting at my kitchen table on the morning of May 18th and it’s snowing outside. That’s right, mid-May and it’s snowing like gangbusters. I used to think Ohio weather was bad.
Apparently this is the annual ‘Mother’s Day Snow Storm,’ which should (hopefully) mark the end of our spring snow season. But honestly, who knows? I’ve learned this week that it’s entirely possible to go from 80 degrees on a Monday to strong thunderstorms at night to 3 inches of snow the next morning. Sure, why not?
Luckily, I’m working from home today and have plenty of hot coffee so I don’t mind the wintery view. This does, however, make the bottle of Rosé I have sitting in my refrigerator seem a little out of season, but I digress.
You see, I’m not here to write a post about the weather. I’m actually not writing about much of anything anymore. That’s kind of the problem.
Back when I used to write for my old blog, Medium Roast, I would stress over not posting something every day. It was a self-induced anxiety that wasn’t doing me any good. It just meant I was rushing something out the door each day, quality be damned. I decided early on that I didn’t want Muddle + Joy to be like that.
So, when my life became busier, I decided that I just wouldn’t worry about posting anymore. If I got around to it, great! If I didn’t, no sweat. It was a burden lifted from my shoulders, but also not a great motivator to actually sit down and write. Go figure.
I realized I had sort of forgotten about the blog when a friend asked when she could see pictures from our recent adventure. It struck me that aside from posting to the blog, I’ve never really uploaded pictures. I rarely post anything to Facebook and things only go up on Instagram if I remember. Without the motivation to share my adventures on the blog, I wasn’t even sharing pictures with family and friends. Oops.
Obviously, the solution is to post pictures somewhere else. Or keep giving out the Dropbox link to let people browse on their own.
But this doesn’t really satisfy my craving to share stories. That’s something I’ve always enjoyed doing and I have no shortage of interesting experiences to share.
Mysterious dead birds, whiteout storms, hot springs in the dead of winter, thunderstorms destroying camp sites, and even some exciting life developments.
And it’s only been five months!
I’m not saying I’m renewing my commitment to posting frequently, but I am eager to start writing again. It’s frustrating when something you want to do (read: blog about your awesome life) has to take a backseat to said awesome life, and I don’t want to keep everything to myself. Even if it’s just a journal for people to keep up with, it’s worth recounting exciting adventures in a way that you guys can enjoy.
My point is this: Extra (and unnecessary) stress is unhealthy. But prioritizing something you want to do and then doing it is a great exercise in self-discipline. I want to tell stories, but I don’t want to feel bad when I don’t.
It’s about setting expectations.
And I expect everyone to do what makes they life better, myself included.